What is it?

So we were so excited to visit the doctor this week and find out if we were having Samantha or Christian. We were suppose to find out the sex of our baby, which would allow my sister Selah to start planning the shower and making the bedding for the nursery. Everyone at work and friends and family told us we were having a girl, and I have dreamt it was a girl. My sister Selah even had a dream the night before our Doctor's visit that I came out of the office and said "ITs a GIRL". So of course what do you think the doctor said first, "I think we have a girl here". So then I open my big mouth and told the Doctor, "Well we better be sure because my sister is making all of the nursery bedding and I don't want her to make the wrong thing. So then the Doctor decides to look at other parts and measure the baby and said we would come back to the privates later. When we revisited the baby's bum region the Doctor said she detected something else, that looked like it was a boy. 45 minutes later she was inconclusive and there I was on the phone with my sister Selah who was ranting about how I could not have a yellow nursery, it just wasn't right to do a nursery in yellow.

Since this episode my husband has learned that there is layoffs at his coal mine, and he may be out of work at the end of this week. The very fact that we were able to see our little babies body moving around inside of me gave us so much to be grateful for, even in the face of a fearful time where we may loose insurance from my husband loosing his job. We just know this baby has a mind and heart and soul of it's own, and if it was stubborn enough to cross it's little legs and hide it's wee wee then it would also give us hope in the future of all the unknowns in this life, that bring excitement and adventure to our marriage and our family.